Friday, June 03, 2005
Rediscovering myself
Two years of IIT preparation takes real person out of you. U may have heard of it so many times. I never realized it untill now when I have begun to rediscover myself.
I really do not know what took it so long. But ya after 4 years of IIT life-of all the fun and frolic, of all the idle hours of gossips and aimless wandering, of all the pursuit of conquering untravelled peaks, I am back to my original self.
I do not if I can really call it my original self. But what I find myself again was the way I uded to be as a school going boy.
May be four years of fast paced life with smilar minded friends never really made me go into an introspection. The real devil flock that we are, it was quite unmotivated to be some good. But then we are not all that bad either. It's just that I did not think about myself too much.
Now when I am at Jamshedpur, all alone, all lonely with plenty of time, mind and heart to gthink upon, I m changing again- rediscovering myself.
Suddenly I again see journalism(may be politics) as best suited career. I found historical episodes so interesting. Reading about great men hangs me in after-thought of severals hours at a stretch. Novels have taken the front seat and all the deabtes that I read in newspaers and see on TV makes me long for a person with counterview to argue upon the issue.
This was all that indulged me as a kid. All of it has come back to me again. How good it would be if those days can come back again too.
But wishes are not horses
Current mood: Calm
Current music: Woh lamhe (from Zeher)
I really do not know what took it so long. But ya after 4 years of IIT life-of all the fun and frolic, of all the idle hours of gossips and aimless wandering, of all the pursuit of conquering untravelled peaks, I am back to my original self.
I do not if I can really call it my original self. But what I find myself again was the way I uded to be as a school going boy.
May be four years of fast paced life with smilar minded friends never really made me go into an introspection. The real devil flock that we are, it was quite unmotivated to be some good. But then we are not all that bad either. It's just that I did not think about myself too much.
Now when I am at Jamshedpur, all alone, all lonely with plenty of time, mind and heart to gthink upon, I m changing again- rediscovering myself.
Suddenly I again see journalism(may be politics) as best suited career. I found historical episodes so interesting. Reading about great men hangs me in after-thought of severals hours at a stretch. Novels have taken the front seat and all the deabtes that I read in newspaers and see on TV makes me long for a person with counterview to argue upon the issue.
This was all that indulged me as a kid. All of it has come back to me again. How good it would be if those days can come back again too.
But wishes are not horses
Current mood: Calm
Current music: Woh lamhe (from Zeher)
Comments:
<< Home
As you believe that "Whatever Happens, Happens for your own good", there is one more thing to believe along with this and that is " Every wish comes true, in a way or other...we just have to wait for the time and when the right time comes, we need to grab that thing realizing that that's indeed my dream". It would be easier for you now, as you know your wishes very clearly:)
May all your dreams come true:)
khushi
Post a Comment
May all your dreams come true:)
khushi
# posted by 
: 8:24 PM
: 8:24 PM<< Home
